Thursday, November 21, 2019

Grateful

Six months ago, I was at my worst physically, mentally, and emotionally. My anxiety had gotten so bad that my body was breaking down, forcing my auto immune disease to flare up and taking a toll on my body, to the point where I could barely grocery shop or go out and enjoy spending time with people.

Four months ago, I was put on anti anxieties that changed my life.

One month ago, I had an idea to throw a Thanksgiving dinner party for my Bingo ladies. I thought we'd do a pot luck, and that everyone could bring a dish.

Three weeks ago, I decided that since I've been teaching myself to cook and was feeling inspired, I challenged myself to make the entire dinner on my own.

Yesterday, I cleaned the house from top to bottom.

Today, I arranged the house and cooked an amazing dinner for nine people.

Six months ago, I couldn't have any of that.

I'm feeling a lot of things, but I'm mostly feeling grateful to be a whole human being again. To have the energy, stamina, and mental capacity to pull something like this off is just astounding to me. But then again, I wasn't even half a person until recently.